What are you suck at?

It is easy to talk about what you are good at. Or, things that are easy for you to comprehend, be it at work or in relationships.

But when it comes to your ‘areas that need of improvement’ …. Hmmm. Will you  be that bluntly honest? Is it too weird for us to talk about: “What are you suck at?”
Let me try...

I suck at … relationships. No surprise eh? I can say I am a great starter in relationships. I have the ability to keep the distance but also to keep up with little perks to the day we can finally be an item. I know how much men love their freedom and trust me, I can give them that privilege while being in an intimate relationship.

But as time travels, I will start ...to... freak out. This the phase when I start to have an over bearing anxiety about getting hurt and I will easily bail out of relationship the second I am sensing something is wrong. 
Fixing it sounds too exhausting. And I don’t want to risk my heart being hurt for real. Classic? Wait till you read this.... I am a big 'loner'. So giving my space (be it time, a drawer, bed, nights in, day off)  is a big time compromise. I mean, big. If I allow you to be part of it, it means I really like you. To the rim!

At this very moment, I am learning to fight against this habit. Haha... I know, the word fight might sounds like an exaggeration but if you are in my shoes, you will understand why I am using that particular word. To make this not so stressful, I learn to start talking about things instead of avoiding conflict. I accept the fact that in relationship, there will always a time when your ideas cannot go together, when you are being hurt or when you –be it with your consciousness or not- hurt your loved one, when your space is not always yours all the time (oh my)… You cannot avoid that. I just need to make sure I am with the one who is worth fighting for.

And even to most people this is not a surprising fact, for me... this is new. At the age of 32? Oh yes. That's downright pathetic.

I suck at relationships. But admitting this, is half the battle for me in the process of doing it better. 

Bear with me.

Don't ask :)

Five People

I read "Tuesdays with Morrie" a few years before I fall for "The five people you meet in Heaven". This is not a book review, I am just wondering; If you have the liberty to decide on who are the people you will be seeing in Heaven.... Can you name them easily?

Foremost... My Dad Luther Hutasoit, my grandfather Andersen Simanjuntak, grandfather Alfred Hutasoit, the genius Pramoedya Ananata Toer and... Charlie Chaplin :)

Awesome People Hanging Out Together: Awesome Friends

Good morning! 

This Monday's Awesome People post is not taken from the uber cool tumblr like usual... But instead, from my own image library.
This is to bid a farewell that we have renamed to a 'Till We meet Again', to Silvia (the beautiful girl in white shirt) and Nicolas-her husband. Our dearest friends who have taken another opportunity in Kota Kinabalu. 

The ladies in the picture are my besties... Awesome ladies!

This is not our first picture together and I can assure you this is also not the last. Will  capture some more moments again... maybe not soon... But we will!

 

ps: I was on my way to a work event at that particular time, so please excuse my fashion failure at the beach *grin

Taree, Tressabel, Silvia, Fiftin

Pet Peeve(s)

I just had this conversation with a friend. She told me that she is so frustrated by how hard it is for her roommate to decide where to go for dinner! Hahaha! So we examined her discomfort as a pet peeve. Little things or actions that someone or something does that aggravates, frustrates, or annoys you.

Here are some of mine that I hope will not make people cringe;

• I am easily annoyed by people who make business calls or text before 9 am and or after 8 pm. That's just annoying. Sure there are emergencies, and an over-continent conference call somehow cannot be avoided, but if you can wait to a decent hour (especially that we know we are not brain surgeons), please do so. If you cannot, at least... a simple word of sorry before the call would suffice. 
• Coming late for appointments? Please, don't. 
• People I just met asking for blackberry PIN. There is a fine line sweety... Phone number is enough already, I guess. And what makes you think we need to communicate that intense after just one casual meeting?
• A holiday inquiry that is just not yet narrowed down. I live in this island to work my a## off, not to be a '24 hour' holiday consultant for people who only text me for this matter and be gone after. That my friend... is so annoying.
• Ashtrays full with cigarette butts . Weird? I know. But it gives me goosebumps :( eeeksss!
• And,  this one that is well put by someecards below...

ps: Do you have any? Are you being open about it?

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Inspiration Sunday: Bible Calendar

Gingham Dare

Fashion time!
I am in a serious crush with Gingham pattern,  especially in shirts! 
This does not mean that I am abandoning my paroxysm in striped pattern, white shirt, and classic style... No. 
I just have a new eye candy now and I  want to spruce up my wardrobe with them.
Where to buy... where to buy?

Walking Around (I am loving the pink and the blue!)

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Loving Friday: The health that comes from being alone

Last week, I posted a writing on how I enjoy doing a few things and chores  alone. This quote is diminishing my guilt a bit :)

Now I do not feel weird as much....

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