It has been a while indeed that I have not posting for my Inspiration Sunday feature! Well not much to say here, as I am running out of almost everything in the house (no coffee, no long phrases), I am just sharing one beautiful quote to my ladies out there. A conversation with a friend a few days ago reminded me how amazing God is and how hopeless I know I will be if I keep convincing myself I can do things on my own.
Insomnia attacks! So here goes... What do people actually do with it? Count sheep? Read? Eat? I tend to... write random stuffs, read magazines (and end up making check list of things I want-and not necessarily need!), or the worst... over-thinking stuff. Argh!
So since the latest is what I have been doing the past hours, I am taking my mind elsewhere. by... posting random stuff....
So, here's one of my fave line from my all-time movie darlings: "Dead Poets Society"... Just cause:)
Now I hope I can get to sleep now because I actually am ver... hmmm... exhausted!
I just read a fascinating little etiquette tip! When we are in a situation that require us to introduce someone, we should always say their namefirstand their relationship to us after. Common 'mistake': "This is my brother, John Doe." Do it right!: "This is John Doe, my brother." That way, you spotlight theperson--not their connection to you. This small thing makes a cute and notable difference! I am going to start doing this now! ps: More etiquette to follow: here. Chivalry should not be vanishing!
When my friends met my looked-like-a-forty-something Mama, the first comment will be "Oh she's so pretty!". And, pretty she is. She has aged gracefully, you will see wrinkles and imperfections of a few gray hairs. But since she has this pair of wandering eyes... she does not seem like a grandma with two grandsons. And boy I wish I will have a figure like her when I am at her age... She's more like a friend than a mother. That's about it. And both my mom and I have been through only a roller-coaster kind of live. Nothing less. She is "younger" than I am in many ways and is impulsive, and been to places and conditions we can not even imagine. But that story is for us to keep. So for me, there is no reason to hide stories from her. No need to pretend to be somebody that you are not when dealing with her. I do not always mind my language when we talk. She will just love you no matter what. Really! Even so... there are things that I find hard to just casually mention to her when we talk. ps: This is my time to be selfish so I can write anything... even if it sounds too hilarious. Mama, I believe in things that most people would cringe to, I allow myself to be exposed to many understandings, dogmas and to this day, I still do not believe that a complete life comes in template order: dating-married-kids. I do not. It can be that way, but it can also be in different order. I may follow the path, I may not. Dad and you have set a benchmark that is so high, I can only get teary when thinking about it... But funny enough, that's also what is stopping me. I might change. I may not. This is something that I do not know for sure, and I am fine with not knowing. But I want to tell you that I am not afraid to love again, I am not afraid to share life with someone that I know will take care of my heart. I just do not think he will be brave (read: crazy) enough to love me. I know people have been asking me to stop comparing dad with any man. I eventually will, I know that. Someday, I will be on the floor thanking God for having to make my heart finally giving up. Mama, About grandchild. I know you have two beautiful grandsons now and they keep you busy. I secretly am thankful for that. Not only because I love those boys to death too but also... also because they stop you from asking when is mine going to come into the world. I have no answer to this Mama, I really do not. I lost one of your "supposed-to-be-grandchild" and the aching pain from not getting a chance to hold my very own baby is taking a remarkably slow time to heal... I always want to be a mama. Of a boy at first will be best. The girl can come after. Or whichever order. I know you know that. But, what if I can never do that? Will this mean you will spend time less with me than the rest of my other siblings who can give you more little round belly for you to carry? Will this make me less perfect, and the saddest thing... less of a woman? I am moving forward, Mama. From all of our past and the lost times I once demanded for you to give back to me. I forgive myself, for causing such terrible miss-understandings whenever we had hardships that made you once (or twice) think that I love you not. Nothing that I would change about you and I. But one I thing I know for sure is that I am thankful for you.... and the good genes: (ahem, good metabolism) I have gotten from you. I.Love.You. Your first.