If you were not afraid

If fear is nowhere to be found in my bone... This is what I am going to do: Just quit and actually write that book I have been rambling about the past 3 years.

Everybody knows how much I love my job and how proud I am of the company. But this calling is getting louder, and to fulfill that; I have to be fearless. This of course revolves around financial stability. How would I pay my house? Will the calling be as fulfilling, at one point, financial wise? Am I going to let go easily; all the perks that I am now enjoying?

Is status really does not matter to me? What about my health plan?

See?!

This can only happen if I am THAT brave... gutsy, lionhearted, and filled with flaming courage.

And, in love life? Oh gawd. This is even harder.

I will fall hopelessly in love. And be vulnerable. :)

What about you?

ps: This post is lawfully inspired by this tumblr.

No Fear

How often do you talk about your fears? How often you do something about it?

Having no slightest intention to pry, especially because I can be the biggest wuss there is in most areas in life, I think I can share a thing or two.

I am afraid of commitment. Like very afraid. Like terrified to the bones afraid. Therefore I let someone in and mess my idea of independence by living with him and share my dreams, hopes and plans. Every single perks, every bits of ups and downs mess my idea of love and relationship.
How is it going to turn up? I am not sure, but I can assure you I am not that afraid anymore.
At least, it does not go to the bones for now, or crawl into my nerves like it used too :)

And oh, Merry Go Round freaks me out too. Maybe, I should go for a ride soon.