Worry Not

Can jotting you worries down work like an elixir to an aching pain? It does to me. So here I am, dishing them out:

Health. Like worrying to the limit I cant stop thinking about it and over researching about this stuff...
Money. In the sense of calculating my age and what should I have laying around and in what year I can reach certain numbers. In the sense of being afraid of not being able to really taking care of people I love.
My Mama. But I cannot tell you why.
This ticking biological clock.
My work. My work. That project.
Safety. I still check my doors and windows for like a dozen of times before going to bed. And I  know I have three alarming dogs and one of them is a true guard!

I need to remind myself over and over again about this verse tho.
And I know... He is right.

Any worries you feel like dumping?

Saying Images

Happy People

Oh how I have been missing you all!

Not only that I am feeling this stinging guilt towards my babies (yep, my dogs), I also realize that I have not been a good companion for most of my dearests! It's sad that we complain a lot about not having enough time whilst at the same time knowing that just the exact amount of hours, minutes and seconds were given to majestic people like Beethoven, Gandhi, or a great author in my country Pramoedya Ananta Toer. And they did amazing things in life; the world today is not the same without them and what they did is still is making a positive viral affect.

And look here I am, nagging, whining and complaining for having not enough energy to read, to walk my dogs or to simply enjoy a cup of coffee without having this rambling thoughts in my head "Mmm.. I have not done this, I have to check that... errr did I pay that already?.. shoot, what time is it ?!" 

This article came to the rescue. I just read them word.by.word and now am feeling a lot better. I think, I am not that bad. All the samples stated does sound familiar to me. For example, cotton-candy looking sky still make me stop for a minute or two, waggy dogs still make me so happy I want to kiss them in the face, I still enjoy my time alone... and I still am a firm believer that almost everything can turn into something better with good music.

Here's the link if you like to know : Habits of Supremely Happy People , and here below is one of my happy places.... Getting lost in a book.
(Ed.note: An essay collection of Charles Saatchi)

Babble

Nerdy Not

I did mention to you before that I am supposed to wear glasses. But to this very day, I am still sticking my nose to a book and forcing my eyes to work harder just because I have not yet found the perfect glasses that will not give me migraine after two hours. And no brands of contacts, be it cheap or expensive not giving me horrifying allergies. Oh, the drama!

That, and ahem... I am not that confident wearing them. 

But when my sister told me that my eyes can get worse as a result of my ignorance, I think I will have to obey this one rule.

So, here's my attempt, to not look that nerdy.

What do you think?

Weird

I am that girl.
I play Christmas songs in June just to get a better mood and wipe my own tears away. I make strange gestures when I have my 'Eureka!' moments and I cannot control them. Ever.
I may not like half of the songs from this month's top 40. They are not 'old' enough for my old-soul and for my ears. 
I am that girl.
I do not answer calls right away and that does not mean that I do not like you, nor too busy. It's just that, at that time, I do not have the energy to chat. I will call you back. I can make sure of that.
I am that girl. that will allow you to walk away if you think you want to. I will stop and actually smell the roses whenever I am in a rush. I like animals more than most people, I listen to Sinatra, Pearl Jam, Incubus, The Rolling Stones, The Beatles...and yet, read Tolstoy and Harper Lee and draw on people's note pads.

I am that weird girl. Who would really appreciate a card of a 'just cause' rather than expensive dinner and is offended if not getting an invite to a game night with beers with the boys but is fine with hitting the pause button to clubbing for...years.

Who would appreciate space. But might let you nestle under her arms if you really are in need. For as long as you mind that it's the dogs that she will be more often talking to.
Who thinks cartoon movies are the best next to all Sundance fest movies and wish that Pippi Longstocking can be her friend in life.

I am that girl.

Who's -no matter how much she would deny it- ... is a die hard believer of Love.

Yep.